Beyond the Cross

From the personal testimony published April 4, 2010

I am extremely grateful for every opportunity that the Lord has awarded me to share my testimony. These past four years have been phenomenal for me spiritually, physically, emotionally and our family has been abundantly blessed in every area of our lives. I attribute this to God's unmerited favor and my willingness to submit to God and His will. I know Him to be a rewarded of them that diligently seek Him. Currently my husband and I are like a fine oiled machine and this I attribute as the fruit of our obedience. Many have fallen prey to sickness, recession, and divorce that criticized me and cursed me yet a thousand at to our right hand and ten thousand at our side, but it has not come near our dwelling. Glory to God.

Like most of you, I tasted the bitter fruit that this world has to offer, in the end, as the Great Solomon proclaimed - It was all vanity. I went through a journey; some of you know all too well being that I was on that journey when I met you. I was self-absorbed, vain and couldn't be satisfied. Today I am settled in a way that could only come from the hand of God.

Yes I was always blessed, but I wasn't accountable to the Kingdom of God. Now that I have experienced the true love of God, I now know that I lack nothing. Forgiveness and acceptance of God's love has changed me and I'm no longer the same. When you have a divine intervention and personal experience with Jesus Christ you can never be the same, the sense of wholeness and completeness that I have is immeasurable. Now I count every opportunity to testify of His goodness. I am convinced that until you know Christ who is the Savior of the world, you will never truly understand your purpose.

What He did for me no man could have done. It took God to accomplish it in my spirit. Now I look at all that I accomplished before giving my life to Christ four years ago, and the summation can never compare to what he's done for me.

He woke me from my slumber, after being bound by seducing spirits, driven to destruction, as a foolish woman being led astray. I ask for your forgiveness in my hand of stumbling others and I have made a vow the the Lord from that day until now. I live to worship Him in all that I do, that He may be glorified in me. God has redeemed my whole family. Subjected to many works of the flesh, adultery to name one, but God. I'm so grateful that the spell of the enchanter and demonic warlock chains were broken after I cried out to God. God was preparing my husbands heart husband because I truly wanted to be free. I asked the Lord to come into my heart, forgive me and he purged me from any unrighteousness. A couple of weeks went by and my husband began to see the change in me. But how many know that God will do the work but that doesn't mean we won't have homework to do as well. I remembering struggling with the enemy, finally I heard the Lord tell me it was time to tell my husband. I didn't believe it was necessary in my own mind but I was obedient. I remember when I told my husband about the affairs. He had to die for me. It brought Him to know Christ in a way that He would have never leaned or depended upon him otherwise.

I'm here to tell you that fear is not of God, whatever you secretly struggle with allow God to minister to you and don't be ashamed. You may need to seek a prayer partner to stand with you but you don't have to live another day outside of God's best. That period was a place of death for us, but through God he has brought healing and restoration. My husband's faith is renewed, he is healed and serving Christ as my brother and covenant partner. I do not regret anything that happened because it brought me to the cross of affliction, then crucification and ultimately my rebirth. We are remarried and had a baby shortly after. Who is now 4 years old. We named her Eden, because she marked the new beginning for us. Since, we have been liberated, spiritually, financially and emotionally and physically. We have been blessed to share our story with other couples and aid in financially assisting other households and several ministries. I now home school four of our seven children. Alongside my husband we teach other couples on the importance of leading a Christ-centered family. I'm sharing this with you to let you know that there is life after affliction, the abundant life Christ made possible for us, living beyond the cross.

May the revelation of this prayer bring godly desires and restore a pure heart to those seeking true intimacy and wholeness in divinely ordered marriages. May they be girded in truth with a renewed commitment to allow the glory of God to be revealed through the covenant that Christ offers in all area of our lives.

-a servant's heart

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